A deep sense of unworthiness, or NEVER ENOUGH-NESS, can drive us to create a mask that we wear through life.
Everyone thinks we're OK (or maybe not), but it's not real. We've disconnected from our authentic, true self.
Once we are masked, we may do all the "right" things, do "good" things, but we'll always have a gnawing sense that we are imposters that don't belong and don't measure up.
Therefore, we'll be deeply rooted in NEVER ENOUGH.
There is a way to completely heal this loss of self. It's not by doing things right. It's not by doing "good" things. It's by learning to be REAL.
Do you know who you are?
Do you feel like you've lost yourself?
Are you stuck inside a mask of approval seeking?
Here's what I did.
I did one thing each day that I knew was from my true self.
I had to remember way back to before my traumas, before my mind created translations of events in my life and made them mean something about my WORTH.
I loved music. I drew horses all the time. I read tons of book, especially about horses and dogs. I wrote.
So my new daily practice began as this. I played MY music, the music that spoke to me. I drew horses again. I went to Barnes & Noble and I bought all my favorites from childhood that I could remember and I read them. I have a special shelf at home dedicated to them. Charlotte's Web. Island of the Blue Dolphins. Black Beauty. And I wrote. In my journal at first, it wasn't for anyone else but ME.
Those simple, small acts of RECONNECTING and honoring who I really am started to rattle the masks loose and allow a little more LIGHT into my innermost being. I started to break free of the expectations outside of me. I started to finally be ME.
It was like breaking out of prison. It was glorious, joyful and miraculous.
Try it. Is there a part of you that you left behind because you had responsibilities and expectations? Take the time. Reconnect. Find what speaks to your soul and don't ever stop doing it.
There's an incredible peace and divine confidence that comes from simply BEING YOU.